I thought it would be easier this time.

I thought i could go to work for the day and be alright.

I thought i wouldn’t fall apart. 

I thought i would be able to hold it together.

I thought i was done crying. 

Hell, I thought this day wouldn't come until winter. 

I thought wrong. 

There's no wagging tail. 

There's no patter of tiny feet.

There's no reason to open the patio curtains first thing in the morning. 

There's no reason to have a can of dog food in the fridge.

There's no one to say goodbye to when i leave. 

There's no greeting when i get home.

There's only dead silence and a hollow feeling. 

Rest in peace